What’s wrong with me?

A depression
is the hard answer
an almost inhuman task
which give us the soul
those affected by it
puts into it

the fatal thing is
that I mean myself
i’m the author
this torment of hell

i try
with my fear
since my childhood
To go hand in hand

One Indian Girl

I have to say that this took a lot of courage and thinking because… I’ve been struggling a lot lately and I don’t understand what’s happening but I can’t handle this alone.

Hopefully blogging about this might help so it’s a start.

I don’t know if I’m depressed or sad or numb or lazy or everything I mentioned but for a while now… I have no motivation whatsoever to do anything. Even to read or write for myself or watch Netflix.

Yes. I love to do all those things but… I don’t know. I don’t feel like doing them.

I feel so distant with myself and I’m slowly losing interest in everything and I’m being distant with some of my close friends too.

I thought I dealt with my anxiety but it feels like it’s back and with so much force now.

I can’t sleep at night mostly because my…

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52 Antworten zu “What’s wrong with me?

  1. Depression is a kind of disease that we can’t show others, the feeling is strange, nothing looks good need proper treatment for it. Well written.🌹😊

    • There are types of depression that can be treated
      Depression doesn’t just make those affected sick
      Depression, which one blames oneself to be blamed for, does not get to the bottom of the event
      In the case of severe depression, death would be a relief
      Trying to endure depressin seems the only way to me

  2. Wisely penned. Well depression associated with only our mind, it happens when we are unable to face the reality

  3. S.

    dovresti mettermi il traduttore 😉 🙂

  4. Depression is awful. Wish we can get rid of it, but it is not easy.

    • Endure the heavy
      is probably ours task

      • Original research which views both T’NaCH and Talmud as common law codifications.

        Recall my absolute shock, during the opening days of formally learning Torah @ the Chabad Yeshiva in Har Nof Jerusalem. The Rosh Yeshiva, rabbi Kaplan, introduced the Mishna as a Common Law Case\Rule/ legal system. No rabbi before or sense ever made such a definitive understanding of the Mishna. Did this Common law legal system equally apply to the T’NaCH? My research argues most definitely YES.

        Since moving to Israel in 1991, have made efforts to do t’shuvah. T’shuvah shares no common ground with the Xtian Anathema known as repentence. T’shuvah addresses the plague of Jewish assimilation to foreign cultures and customs practiced by peoples and societies who never accepted the revelation of the Torah @ Sinai and Horev. Assimilation represents the bane of g’lut Jewry’s existence throughout our 2000+ years in accursed g’lut. Stateless Jewish refugee populations scattered in tiny enclave population centers, dispersed across the Middle Eastern Sephardi black communities, and Ashkenazic white European communities. All Jews throughout history have struggled with doing t’shuvah in the face of assimilation. The Book of Kings, for example, tells stories how kings introduced foreign worship\avodah zarah/ and incorporated these alien customs, manners, and ways into the cult of Jewish religious practices.

        Jewish assimilation defined: Jews who abandon our Cohen tohor service identities. And embrace the cultures and customs of alien peoples; comparable to the black folk, former slaves, who embrace the Xtian religion of their former slave owning masters. As an Israeli have made allot of racial humor which lampoons black assimilation to there white over-lords. Religious Jews in Israel refer to themselves as “Black”. My humor, which attempts to compare religious Haredi Jews to ‘niggers’; alas few of my peers make the jump whereby my humor mocks my own people.

        Most people who hear my racial jokes never make the משל\נמשל דיוקים. They take a טפש פשט, a literal understanding, of my racial slurs. They assume that racist jokes refer to black folk in America rather than — the exposed butt of Haredi Jews in Israel. Something like the missionizers in Tulsa Oklahoma, who did not know how to respond when their target Jew boy for conversion, (as they viewed me), informed them that i considered myself as an atheist praise G-d. Religion, whether practiced by Goyim or Jews, tends toward a balloon like over inflated view of its piety – surely religious piety, only praiseworthy, it never stinks…NOT.

        Religion, all religion, merits taking its “holiness & perfection” with a large amount of salt. Most religious Jews who crossed my path here in Israel, they remind me of a dog who continually chases after its tail; or a silly hamster who runs itself half to death on a treadmill. Most religious Yidden simply adore religious wrappings, as expressed by rhetoric and propaganda. Something like the Fascists of Nazi Germany who simply loved their pomp parades and night time rallies.

        “My Crowd”, they love the trappings of ribbons and bells, but never attempt to explore, much less so, understand the substance and purpose behind the ritual of their religious pageantry. The commentaries on the Halachic codifications, especially the Shulchan Aruch, serve as glaring examples of ghetto scholarship Jews chasing after their tails. Nothing more galled me in my youth than when I visited the homes of my black mamma maids and saw public displays of their Xtian religious relics. My black mamma maids lived on the other side of the segregated tracks! In the early 1960s Jim Crow laws still prevailed in Midland Texas. It equally infuriated me whenever my mother, when she would behave herself, based upon the presumption that her social status towered way above blacks — her social inferiors.

        From an early age, tended to associate religion and racism as two peas in the same pod. Have never felt comfortable, or at ease when around religion. When ever Religious Mass movements come together – Power rather than morality defines their purpose. Religious power, compares to Socrates forced to drink a cup of poison hemlock. Sooner trust that a snake would not bite me if i stepped on it, than trust the power of religion not to convert me unto arrogant behavior. Very much feel at home with secular society. Herein explains the burr under my saddle in matters of doing t’shuvah!

        How does a Yid divorce T’NaCH and Talmud from Frumkeit? The Haredi Yidden behave much like and similar to how my mother looked down her nose toward blacks; how Neturei Karta detests and despises the secular Jewish State. This ‘holier than thou, Torah true Judaism’, it assumes that only these guardians of the Torah, they – and only they – possess a lock and key over their Torah monopoly! Secular society, poor nebekals – “broken children”! [Hebrew employs such quaint terms for social contempt. Nebek, pathetic social inferiors who merit nothing but extreme pity; תינוק שנשבר: (literally: a Jewish child captured and raised by Goyim)]. Such derisive terms, Haredi Yidden repeatedly and all to often express their disdain over secular Jewry – their social inferiors.

        As if the children of Haredi Yidden families, don’t struggle with assimilation, just as much or more, than do secular Yidden families! Religion spews a “Holier than thou” poison; an arrogant social superiority complex. Expressed through the different kippa head coverings. G-d forbid that a person who dons a Kippah sruga, (knitted kippa), should ever disgrace himself, even on Purim, by wearing a black haredi kippa!

        Immediately noticed, from day one in Yeshiva, that commentaries written by Reshonim scholars, on the Talmud and T’NaCH, that they fail to lampoon and criticize their crowd of religious g’lut Jewry. Religious Jewry their shit doesn’t also stink? Disputes defines virtually every rabbinic commentary ever written. Yet, despite these bitter disputes, Reshon authorities, especially after the Rambam Civil War, fail to effectively criticize Jewish religious practices as just plain wrong; the failure of rabbinic g’lut Judaism to inspire our People to rebuild Jewish Home Rule in the oath sworn lands! Only the false messiah Sabbatai Zevi inspired my crowd to leave the oppression of g’lut, and aspire to rule the oath sworn lands!

        This fundamental and basic flaw to challenge and criticize the flawed scholarship made by Reshon authorities; specifically the failure of their religious commentaries to arouse the spirit within the hearts of our children to make Aliyah to the oath sworn lands; the barren pilpulism and its inherently flawed ideas touching “scholarship” and education; the tendency to make rabbinic authorities into cults of personalities, like as did chassidus in Easter Europe. These basic mistakes, they aroused within me the willingness to reject and invalidate the authority of the Reshonim commentaries made on the T’NaCH and Talmud. What happened to the priority of prophetic Mussar during the Middle Ages? The ‘Golden Age’ of Spain, had it not witnessed a total rabbinic assimilation to the rediscovered ancient Greek philosophers!

        The silence, the total lack of denunciation over the betrayal by rabbinic authorities, their public assimilation to despised ancient Greek cultures and customs … forced me to ask: what Jews light the lights of Chanukah … only for the ritual lights themselves?! Slowly dawned the realization, that something stinks in the state of Denmark. Once openly critical of Reshonim scholarship, that got me into immediate trouble in Yeshiva, I started mocking “black” Haredi Jews by lampooning the niggers of America! It never ceases to amaze me that religious Yidden, they fail to hop that my racial jokes mock religious Haredi Jews, and not the black people of American society!

        Haredi Yidden just could not get past the racial ribbons and bells to grasp that my satire, it denounces the Haredi religions of rabbinic assimilation. Placed my bulls eye mark on the Rambam’s aristotelian logic. Based upon rabbi Waldman’s observations. He praised that style of logic as what distinguishes the Rambam halachic code, from that of the Tur Shulchan Aruch. But Karo’s The Cesef Mishna commentary on the Yad Hachzakah, and commentaries made upon that famous code, they all fail to explain the relationship of halachic precedents, and how they understand the language of the Case\Rule Mishna!

        They all fail to address the prophetic mussar Aggadic relationship, as the breath of רוח הקודש, ie tohor middot, which quickens the k’vanna of halachic ritual observance! Translating abstract ideas into Mishnaic Hebrew fails to understand that translations cannot and do not define the terms which they translate. Something like the word ברית, never once employed anywhere within the Book of the Koran! Covenant – totally fails to define the oath alliance obligations of the word ברית.

        Neither the Koran nor new testament ever once bring the Name revealed @ the first commandment of Sinai. Learning to do and keep commandments לשמה, defines all Torah scholarship! The 13 tohor middot, they function as “pronouns” of the רוח הקודש – Name. The revelation of the Name, does not exist as a word; the sin of the golden calf – Aaron translated the Name unto אלהים, a word.

        Impossible to ‘cut a brit’ without swearing a Torah oath “blowing” the spirit of the Name; as learned from the mitzva of blowing of the Shofar. Miztzvot learn from other mitzvot — like metal sharpens metal. Making affixed connections between mitzvot “precedents”, defines all T’NaCH and Talmudic scholarship. This rule stands totally different and apart from the Reshon priority simplification, that focuses upon the determination of p’shat. Grew to hate the question: ‘What’s the p’shat?’, repeatedly asked by my rabbinic peers.

        Assimilation — the first face of avodah zarah. A direct violation of the 2nd Commandment of Sinai. Two key figures define this avodah zarah. They combine with the Black Death pandemic of the 14th Century: (1) King Shlomo’s construction of the 1st Temple; (2) The Rambam’s halachic perversion of Rabbi Akiva’s פרדס explanation of the revelation of the Oral Torah logic @ Horev. This line of research delves into a highly complex and difficult realms of scholarship. For example, never in 2000+ years has any Xtian “scholar” realized that the Hebrew T’NaCH functions as the first common law codification. The assimilated Reshonim scholarship likewise crashed the ships of all their religious commentaries – on this reef of T’NaCH common law. Never did any rabbinic lecture address the perils of Jewish assimilation within the walls of the Yeshivas which I attended!

        As a T’NaCH\Talmud researcher, seek to view this Classic Masoret viewed from a completely different perspective than that taken by the “assimilated” Reshonim scholars. Have presented arguments which denounce both king Shlomo’s decision to build the Temple and the Rambam’s halachic codification, as both the definition of ruinous assimilation, and the expression of absolute disaster for all generations of Jewry that came thereafter – worse than even the black death itself.

        My sh’itta of learning offers a new interpretation upon the classic Hebrew concept known as ירידות הדורות. This alien assimilationist theological idea, it promotes an utterly absurd idea that later generations lack the mental capabilities possessed by earlier generations. This rabbinic dogmatism has plagued my people for a very long time. How to refute and negate this long standing dogma held near and dear among my rabbinic peers? To accomplish this, first requires a back handed validation of its absolute narishkeit.

        Decisions taken by a great leader, they produce, so to speak, a domino effect. Once Shlomo built the Temple, no one thereafter ever challenged that decision as invalid. None of the kings who came after Shlomo, nor the prophets, ever openly mocked or challenged the decision taken by Shlomo to built his grand Temple. The construction of the Temple, it supplanted the Order of priority — to establish a Federal Sanhedrin common law court system. Shlomo’s narishkeit ‘replacement theology’, it switched thereafter the ‘Golden Ideal’ goal posts. All kings thereafter viewed the grand images of the Temple as the golden ideal. While, צדק צדק תדוף became relegated to just a back water eddy. Reshonim chased the ghost of messiah with the declaration that the Moshiach would build the 3rd Temple!

        But what if king Shlomo ignored the council of the prophet NaTan, like as did his son – who at Sh’Cem rejected the advise counseled by the elders, who served his father, king Sh’lomo? Because no Jewish authority ever risked to reject the decision taken by king Shlomo, this resulted in all later generations lacking the t’shuvah mental ability\ירידת הדורות/ to return\t’shuvah/ our nation back unto its original destiny path walk! Israel came out of the bondage of Egypt, to rule the oath sworn lands with justice. HaShem did not redeem Israel from oppressive slavery, just for our People to bankrupt our treasury and build ornate and spectacular Temples, like so defines European medieval cultures and customs – Dark Ages. To love HaShem with all our strength, commanded through the kre’a shma, actively entails making wise investments of our limited treasure resources in our family and neighbors success.

        The same equally holds true with how the Rambam halachic code redefined the concept of halachah. All generations thereafter, they lacked the spiritual stones to do t’shuvah. Following the burning of the Talmud in Paris, rabbinic Judaism never challenged the flawed premise of learning, which the Rambam code had established. No generation thereafter ever attempted to correct the gross error in judgment made by the Rambam. The Rambam code quickly overshadowed the B’hag, Rif, and Rosh, codes which compared halachic precedents to a defined Case\Rule Mishna. Prophetic mussar, it too became just a back water eddy. Aggaditah turned itself, so to speak, into a ‘black slave’; just a poor nigga pariah ‘boy’! It became fit for only quaint woman’s learning; T’NaCH transmuted, much like the Xtian leavened wafer and a cup of wine ritual, into a glorified history book! Herein encapsulates my back handed validation of ירידות הדורות.

        Rabbis in Yeshiva quite often skipped over the Aggadic portions within the Talmud, rabbinic instruction make it their focus priority to emphasize the Rambam perversion of Talmudic halachah! These Rosh Yeshiva rabbis, they themselves do not grasp that the Sha’s Bavli has a warp\weft Halachah/Aggaditah Loom-like fabric faith. Yeshiva students became oblivious to the spirit of prophetic mussar – how it breathes life – unto the halachic forms of ritual observances. These new generations of students they have eyes only focused upon the halachic ritual whistles and bells. What mussar rebuke lays beneath the surface of the shiny ritualized halachic tinsel, does not concern, nor interest them in the least. Study of the k’vanna of T’NaCH common law compares to the Yeshiva education on the k’vanna of the Siddur. The Baali T’shuvah Yeshivot in Jerusalem, at the height of the t’shuvah fad, they cranked out massed produced Frumkeit Yidden; all uniformly dressed up in their holier than thou religious uniforms and black hats.

        None of these new religious t’shuvah converts, understood the need to restore the Written Torah as the Constitution of the Republic of States within Israel. None of the rabbinic instructors understood the pressing priority need to reestablish the Federal Great and Small Sanhedrins (6 Cities of Refuge), and restore the authority of the Sanhedrin Federal Courts to conduct ‘legislative review’ of all laws passed by the Knesset. Just as living Man has both flesh and spirit so too law requires both substance and form. Prophetic Mussar defines the spirit of all Torah external klippot laws. Instead, rabbis harp the preach that Jews in Israel live in g’lut because the Moshiach has yet to build the 3rd Temple!

        Frumkeit does not, in point of fact – prosper, when sex trade markets and white slave prostitution rings thrive in Tel Aviv. To cause the Jewish state to stand fully Independent requires forcing Capital Crimes criminals guilty of sexual hedonism and\or mafia economic debauchery domination of markets, which often results in murder, to not only stand trial – but to impose either g’lut or one of the four death sentences upon them. Plastic police should not focus their energies upon imposing fines through traffic tickets. Only court judges, not plastic police, have the authority to punish transgressions through fines.

        T’shuvah requires that the Jewish State rejects the Western prison system. Justice cannot and does not compensate for damages, by housing criminals within expensive prisons for extended periods of time. Justice rejects the huge expenses associated with Appellate courts, made famous in the broken American legal system, together with its exorbitantly expensive prison bureaucracies. Better to restrict justice to local conditions, and impose public humiliation and court ordered whipping posts, to punish criminal behavior. Justice rejects the public incarceration of criminals with other criminals – for extended periods of time. Permitting these people the לוקסוס\luxury/ to better learn the secrets of their tumah enterprises.

      • הנשמה רוצה
        דרך הדיכאון

        עם כל החושים שלך
        באלה שנפגעו

      • Sorry התפכות להשיג?

      • Why the Hebrew Canon excludes the Alexandrian books of Apocrypha?

        The most simple explanation … the T’NaCH Canon exists as the first Common Law Codification of Jewish lateral common law. The Books of Apocrypha do not exist or qualify as Jewish Common Law; the framers of these books, they had no intention to employ their study as a reference unto learning the prophetic mussar commandments within the T’NaCH.

        The absurd alien distinction made by foreign Goyim “scholars” which separates and distinguishes “inspired by God” as opposed to “written by Men”, this false\perverse distinction it has confused and corrupted humanity ever since the Biblical translators perverted and distorted the T’NaCH with their unilateral decision to replace T’NaCH sugiot with chapters and verses. Once the Xtian bible perversions uprooted the Order of sugiot\sub chapters/, it became impossible to learn the T’NaCH literature by way of precedents … the comparison of sugiot with other similar sugiot – the comparison of sugiot sharing the same exact order of middot.

        The destruction of the Order of sugiot within the Books of the T’NaCH caused the immediate cessation of learning this first code of Jewish Common law, the T’NaCH, by way of middot precedents. The 13 tohor middot
        שמות לד:ו … ויעבור ה’ על פניו ויקרא ה’ ה’ אל רחום וחנון ארך אפים ורב חסד ואמת, נוצר חסד לאלפים נושא עון ופשע וחטאה ונקה

        They serve as the basis whereby T’NaCH common law scholars compare different sugiot within the T’NaCH literature, based upon a comparison of middot. Rabbi Akiva’s ‘chariot mysticism’, otherwise known as פרדס — פשט, רמז, דרוש, וסוד, this system – it – serves as the most authoritative explanation of the 13 middot logic format, which Moshe the prophet heard directly from HaShem on Yom Kippur, 40 days after Aaron translated the revealed רוח הקודש Name (the 1st Commandment of Sinai) unto the word אלהים. Words – by definition do not and can not exist as רוח הקודש. Moshe interpreted 611 Commandments through the logic of the 13 middot as his explanation of the k’vanna of the opening first two Commandments which Klall Yishroel accepted @ the revelation of the Torah @ Sinai.

        Once Goyim authorities enforced their Chapters\verses biblical perversions upon g’lut Jewish refugee populations, Jews soon lost the knowledge that the Books of the T’NaCH, this Canon, existed as the first codification of Jewish Common Law. By the time of the Reshonim scholars (approximately 950 – 1400 CE), the knowledge of how to learn Aggaditah and Midrashim had become “extinct”. The Gaonim scholars (600 – 950 CE), they failed to effectively transmit how to learn and study Aggaditah\Midrashim. This ancient kabbalah, secretly passed down word of mouth from a rabbi to a single talmid\student. This kabbalah rabbi Aaron Nemuraskii taught to me, but not to his sons.

        Have previously attempted to give an explanation to this rather “odd” behavior. Simply stated, Jewish communities in g’lut – they had lost, even during the life time of Rabbi Yechudah Ha’Nasi, the wisdom of how to do mitzvot לשמה. The repetition of the Name of HaShem in the 13 middot, comes to teach that these tohor middot they serve as “pronouns” of the רוח הקודש Name of HaShem. When a person stands in tefillah, he blows the Spirit Name with the k’vanna of calling upon a specific tohor middah within his heart. Herein explains tefillah as ‘a duty of the heart’. Alas assimilated g’lut Jewry, their sh’ittot of learning had duplicated, in some ways, the Catholic method known as dogmatism. Rabbi Aaron did not risk teaching his sons the hidden kabbalah lest they become social pariahs within the community of Meah Shearim Jerusalem. As a relatively young bochur looking for a shidduch, because i interlaced my fingers while in a home in Meah Shearim, the Yidden their viewed me with extreme suspicion.

        The Talmud common law codification compares to the beauty of a Persian Rug. The Halachah\Aggaditah relationship resembles the warp\weft of a loom. The scholarship of Halachah – it makes a search study of halachot precedents by which to understand any given Case\Rule Mishnah. The scholarship of Aggaditah\Midrashim – they make a search study of T’NaCH sugiot “precedents” to understand how prophetic mussar understands that same Case\Rule Mishnah. This sh’itta\method of learning defines how the Framers of the Talmud intended all generations thereafter to learn the k’vanna of the T’NaCH and Talmud. And how this and that together define the k’vanna of a specific blessing within the language of the Shemone Esrei tefillah. According to the Yerushalmi, over 247 prophets occupied their energies to write the Shemone Esrei kabbalah of how to da’aven to HaShem within our hearts.

        The Xtian perversion of their biblical translations, combined with the racial prejudice by which Goyim mistreated Jewish refugee populations, the combination of these actions, they produced a profound ירידות הדורות destruction of Torah learning and\or spirituality among my people. G’lut Jewry ceased doing mitzvot לשמה – the opening Commandment of the revelation of the Torah @ Sinai. Herein explains why Reshonim scholarship, its g’lut assimilated scholarship, why it failed to inspire my people to return and do t’shuvah.

        Why g’lut Jewish refugee populations, lead by our rabbinic leaders, we assimilated in mass; when the Muslims rediscovered the ancient Greek philosophical writings following the invasion of Spain. Assimilation, Jews who embrace the cultures and customs of Goyim who never accepted the revelation of the Torah @ Sinai & Horev; Jews who abandon the chosen Cohen oath brit obligation, to dedicate our service to HaShem, by and through the sanctification of tohor middot. Neither Ismael nor Esau … \Muslims nor Xtians/ … ever accepted the revelation of the Torah @ Sinai & Horev. Jewish assimilation to the cultures and customs practiced by the peoples of these societies and civilizations – we worship avodah zarah; a direct violation of the 2nd Commandment of the revelation of the Torah @ Sinai. Herein a quick summation of my long pondered response to the Jewish Holocaust survivor who confronted me when I began to explore my Judaism @ Texas A&M … “I was in Auschwitz, where was G-d?”

      • חוקי החיים
        לכל האנשים
        מעוגנים בנשמה

      • The false ירידות הדורות translation of Aggadik “litter-ature” as “non legal”. The issue: how does a person read the stories of Aggaditah\Midrashim?

        The Rashi commentary on the Chumash, this serves, at least for myself alone, as the יסוד which assisted me tremendously, just what sh’itta development required to learn Aggaditah and Midrashim. In the system of דרדס, דרוש ופשט, they go together like two peas in a pod. This understanding, it explains how Rashi’s commentary to the Chumash made sense, at least for me. The French school on the Chumash and Talmud, grew to admire this scholarship as hands down better than any other rabbinic scholarship on these most essential Primary Sources: T’NaCH, Talmud, Halachah, Aggaditah, Midrashim, and Siddur.

        Rav Nemuraskii repeatedly emphasized that as the rabbis of the Gemarah made the study of the Mishna their chief focus, post sealing of the Sha’s Bavli scholars needed to affix, (da’aven from a “”fixed location”), a specific blessing from the middle blessings of the Shemone Esrei tefillah bound (think Yitzak “bound” upon the altar) to a specific Parshah of the Torah. The Torah has 54 Parshaot. Learning tohor middot לשמה affixes a specific middah to a specific Parshah. This “fixation” permits Yidden to assign one of the four times repeated (think the רוח הקודש Name of HaShem) Parshaot to a singular and specific tohor middah of the Oral Torah pronouns of רוח הקודש.

        Aggaditah\Midrashim/, they make a דרוש upon a specific T’NaCH p’suk\sugiah/ — the codification of prophetic Common Law. As Gemarah Halachot make a רמז וסוד learning upon a specific Case\Rule Mishnah; the Gemarah Aggadot\Midrashim make a דרוש ופשט upon a specific Case\Rule T’NaCH sugia. The Holy Writings of the T’NaCH common law codification they learn the earlier NaCH prophetic sources – by employment of the rabbinic middot developed by Tannaim rabbinic sages. This latter system of middot logic, it contrasts with the 13 tohor middot wherein the NaCH prophets employ sugiot as middot comparisons to other sugiot precedents which contain within them the same Oral Torah middot דאורייתא of tohor logic. The comparative sugiot to sugiot sh’itta of learning NaCH, it defines just how the sealed NaCH masoret functions as the first codification of Jewish lateral common law. The 2nd codification of Jewish lateral common law (the Talmud) stands upon the יסוד of the first codification of Jewish lateral common law (the T’NaCH).

        The comparison of sugiot which share the identical set of tohor middot דאורייתא, this learning by means of precedents – it defines the פשט of prophetic mussar. Once a person has made a דרוש search of T’NaCH precedents — to attain the פשט of prophetic mussar — this learning, it defines the k’vanna of the stories contained within the language of Aggaditah\Midrashim. דרוש does not limit Aggadic\Midrashim language to a simple reading of the words employed within these stories, whose purpose exists to introduce talmidim to the T’NaCH Primary sources, to learn the prophetic mussar as the יסוד and k’vanna of the stories within all Aggadic\Midrashim later sealed Primary Sources.

        The study of Aggaditah\Midrashim weaves the prophet mussar learned from the earlier T’NaCH Primary Sources, into the much later Aggadik\Midrashim Primary Sources, sealed masoret – which by this definition includes both T’NaCH and Talmud. Aggadik\Midrashim weds the דרוש learning of these much earlier Primary Sources, designed to teach mussar by way of comparative sugia precedents,,, the T’NaCH prophetic mussar commandments. Applicable to each and every generation of bnai brit Israel who live upon the Planet Earth – specifically limited to within the lands of Israel. This sh’itta of learning, while it does not negate, for example, the idea that Aggadik\Midrashim stories often employ gender theme narratives; none the less, the sh’itta, how Rav Nemuraskii taught me to learn, this sh’itta of learning views these earlier Primary Sources – of the sealed masoret – this sh’iita of learning makes the common law precedent comparison of sugiot tohor middot contained therein, as the basis of the precedent search which most essentially defines the k’vanna of all Aggadik\Midrashim stories.

        Rav Nemuraskii always separated, so to speak, the steak and potatoes from the salt and pepper condiments. Aggadik\Midrashim scholars always strives to wed prophetic mussar unto these much later Talmudic Aggadic stories. A building of several stories height requires a solid foundation יסוד. Rav Aaron never divorced the learning of T’NaCH sugiot by means of logical middot precedent analysis from the contents\themes contained within the Aggadic\Midrashim stories; the first Common Law Torah codification always serves as the יסוד upon which stands the later Ha(Psak) – Halacha L’Maaseh rabbinic legal codifications of much later Talmudic common law.

        A key theme which prophetic mussar addresses, sexual conduct between the sexes. The story of Yechudah and Tamar or David and Bat Sheva or the behavior of the surviving daughters of Lot etc., they teach mussar applicable to all generations of bnai brit living. These stories do not exist, nor do they function, as history in by-gone days past! T’NaCH teaches mussar rather than history, just as the Talmud prioritizes Oral Torah logic above Law – Halacha L’Maaseh. As tefillah does not exist as a Torah mitzvah without k’vanna. So too and how much more so, Halacha L’Maaseh does not exist as a Torah mitzvah דאורייתא או דרבנן without k’vanna. Talmudic scholarship, therefore it seeks to make an aliyah of positive and negative commandments, commandments which do not require k’vanna … unto positive time oriented commandments, commandments which do require k’vanna.

      • חוקי הנשמה
        חל על כל האנשים
        במידה שווה

      • No. The Torah brit faith – only to the folk ie the chosen Cohen nation,,, who accepted the revelation of the Torah at both Sinai and Horev.

      • אני זמן
        הארעי שלי

        זמן מוגבל
        אחרי זה

        חזרה לעפר הארץ

      • Live and party for then you shall die … the mussar of the hand writing on the Wall in the book of Daniel.

      • קראתי את הכתוב

        בתוך המציאות
        נשימת הנשמה

        לידה ומוות

      • OK. Don’t really understand what you just wrote. The basis of Torah learning and\or spirituality centers upon the sealed masoret Primary Sources: T’NaCH, Talmud, Midrashim, & Siddur.

      • מה שהנשמה אומרת לי בחלום
        זה מה שהנשמה אומרת לי לבד
        ולא לשום בן אדם אחר

      • Good and Fine. None the less Torah faith stands upon the יסוד of the sealed Masoret.

      • הנפש
        פותח את התצוגה
        העין הפנימית
        לעולם הפנימי
        העולם שבחוץ

      • The contrast between the primacy of Justice, achieved by and through lateral common law courtrooms, over the Xtian protestant emphasis which prioritizes baptism, eucharist, penance, and justification by faith alone – all these core doctrines of the church, Judaism totally invalidates. Together with the Catholic narishkeit: salvation, earned through good works — avodah zarah. The whole protestant doctrine of salvation through faith in JeZeus, Judaism abhors. The avodah zarah, expressed through the rabid messiah insanity, on par with the golden calf. These core Catholic and Protestant doctrines, they serve as evidence that church European barbarians – they never accepted the revelation of the Torah @ Sinai & Horev. Their doctrines of salvation: belief in messiah JeZeus, and their Trinity God Head mystery – both doctrines violate the first and second commandments of the revelation of the Torah @ Sinai. Penance, bases itself upon the Pauline doctrine of Original Sin. This doctrine of avodah zarah, it shares no common ground with t’shuvah; the commandment not to follow or embrace the cultures and customs of peoples who never accepted the Sinai\Horev revelation לשמה. The negative Torah commandment, which forbids copying the ways of Egyptian and Canaanite avodah zarah, it serves as the primary precedent wherein Moshe the prophet logically interpreted the k’vanna of the Second Commandment. Torah Oral logic has priority over law. Mussar defines the k’vanna of all prophetic prophesy within the T’NaCH common law codification. The Talmud common law codification stands upon the יסוד of the T’NaCH common law codification. Herein defines the k’vanna of the T’NaCH\Talmud/Siddur\ sealed masoret of faith. All generations of the chosen Cohen nation, who rule the oath sworn lands, we all equally inherit this sealed masoret whereby HaShem judges whether we obey and do all the mitzvot לשמה. Judgment Day upon the Brit – Rosh HaShanah – the current living generations, our Cohen nation status … this Chag measures the heart, soul, and strength of the chosen Cohen nation; every year klall Yisroel stands upon the scales of Justice. Question: Do we establish the Torah as the Written Constitution of the Republic of States? Question: Do we establish the Federal Sanhedrin lateral common law Court system? Question: Do we empower the Federal Sanhedrin lateral common law Courts to define the prophetic mussar k’vanna – through משנה תורה\Legislative Review|Aggaditah/ of all Knesset laws … passed by this Jewish Parliament … established by the founder(s) of the Jewish State? Specifically named Israel, by David Ben-Gurion.

      • הנפש
        פעימות בכל בן אדם
        לפי דין הנפש עצמו

      • No. The chosen Cohen nation accepts the Torah revelation @ Sinai לשמה.

      • אני מקבל את ההתגלות היומיומית

        הנשמה שיש לה שם משלה בכל אדם

      • Cool. But this belief exists independent of the Torah masoret.

      • Torah common law does not depend upon dreams.

      • Das Gewohnheitsrecht, in Stein gemeisselt, kein Gericht darf sich über den Grundsatz der unteilbaren Menschenwürde erheben. Ob nun ein Mensch, mehr oder weniger seine Träume, zu neuer Einsicht; wie die Seele darin spricht, für rechtens hält oder auch nicht.

      • You describe Roman statute law, not Hebrew common law. BIG DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO.

      • Ich beschreibe kein Gesetz
        das was Ihnen bliebt
        sei Ihnen gerecht

      • common law defines the concept of justice.

      • Ihrer Hochwürden, Herr Rabbiner Mosckerr.

        Was Ihnen die Schrift und wie sie den Begriff für Gerechtigkeit für Sie definiert, alle Privillegien die Ihnen dadurch zustehen, und Ihnen eine Ewigkeit von allem Guten noch dazu.

      • Korrektur: beliebt

      • Popularity does not mean squat except perhaps in lynch parties.

      • Ihrer Hochwürden, Herr Rabbiner Mosckerr.

        Die Volkstümlichkeit, Beliebtheit an der Kniebeugung vor
        den Opfern, die durch Selbstjustiz gehängt wurden.

        Wenn Sie damit einen Fingerzeig machen wollen, dann müssen Sie der Gerechtigkeit wohl oder übel, Ihre eigenen Gründe dazu haben.

        Ich grüße Sie
        Herr Rabbiner Mosckerr

      • Eat drink and be marry for tomorrow we shall die.

      • woher ich kam
        wohin ich gehe
        wie ich ende
        das weiss ich mir nicht

      • a recipe for confusion.

      • Ich verteile weder eine Medizin
        keine Rezpete
        gegen die einzige Tatsache
        den Tod

  5. Mit Depression und Angst bin ich konfrontiert seit dem ersten Atemzug, wie es scheint.
    Nun sind 68 Jahre um, das los ist gewöhnlicher geworden,nichts besonderes, nichts außergewöhnliches, zuckendes atmen eben

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